Getting engaged after 2 months of dating
A few weeks before we left, I asked him, "You're not going to ask me to marry you, are you? I proceeded to bully it out of him pleading, "If you are going to do it you have to tell me; it's not fair if you just ask.
You have to let me prepare." This is a sentiment I still stand by.
I cautiously tried keeping my distance and he respected that, only asking to hang out every few days or so and letting me do my Unavailable Girl act for as long as I needed.
So there she was, with a dead boyfriend in an empty apartment, with all of his things taken from her except her memories.
Weeks before he proposed, we agreed we would get engaged. Then, one day on vacation, he said he wanted to take a walk and, details redacted, we got engaged. " and from my very own father: "Fuck." Still, we got engaged and will be married…soonish. After that, it's really just love, mushiness, and everything I never thought I wanted.
As our trip approached, he voiced nervousness about the proposal to which I replied, "You've totally got this in the bag." The absence of surprise is not to say I didn't want the ritual of engagement to be completely discarded. This is the only relationship advice I think I can give: Pray for the haters then keep doing what you're doing. *In all honesty, when I moved to the south I joked, "I'm going to find a husband, get fat, and pop out a few kids," and lo and behold I accomplished one (maaaaybe two) of those things.
I had made it all on my own, and I was proud that I had done something that many people considered brave. I was not one for relationships at the time I met my now fiancé, a word that still makes me cringe slightly. I was very good at enjoying the company of men without slipping into anything too serious.
Then life happened and I, for lack of a less clichéd phrase, fell in love. Though I may have lazily dreamt about relationships with a few of the men that wafted through my life, I never really had the urge to commit to anybody for more than a few weeks, much less the rest of my life.